I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like if we didn’t have Jeremy. When I have these thoughts, I know that I’m in trouble and need time out. A day at the spa perhaps, or maybe sometime out with a good book. For me, it’s spending more time at work. Sounds terrible doesn’t it? But really, time at work for me is time to relax in a stress free environment, chill out and have sometime out away from my son.
Jeremy with his 'I'm in trouble now' look.
I find it hard to achieve the ‘right’ balance between work and Jeremy. What is the right balance? When I work for most of the week, I feel guilty for not spending enough time with him. When I work less, spend more time with him, I sometimes feel like pulling my hair out.
I think this is part of the process of learning how to be a mother, worker and woman, being able to determine the balance to achieving self happiness through these interwining roles.
These are my rambling thoughts tonight, after a few hours spent ‘time out’ at work. I feel re-freshed coming home, and more patient with my son’s demands, even when he has done a wee in his pants after I’d reminded him to go to the toilet 5 minutes earlier…
